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i swear that one day someone is going to kill themselves over mmprint.
back to school week went alright. everything is going on fine and everyone is getting along famously, or so they pretend to be.
it scares me sometimes, this leadership thing, where you have to take charge. and though sometimes i dont mind it, there are times like these that has gotten me worried. i'm not sure if i have done the rght thing but it's time for me to see what i can really do right? i mean, the incident is still fresh in my mind and i do not know if during every project meeting, she is thinking about it too. it has gotten me worried but i tell myself not too, becuase what is the point, seriously?

a bunch of us had to write this essay on why we deserve to get a seat in the overseas cds thing.if i get in, it will mean HELLO SHANGHAI. but never will i step into their toilets. i mean no doors? i do not want to see some random butt crack staring up at me while i wait. and, peeing isn't so bad, but what about shit? gross.

so my bro scored a 238 for his psle which is way better than mine. we went for swensens where mum burned her fingers on the pan of the apple crumble, which was delicious i tell you!
than today, i met up with wanqi and than zakiah. went round looking for formal shoes as my slipper had conveniently decided to split into two. found a great pair but they were too small. me and my big feet, should bind them up. (:
found this great smelling lotion from bodyshop and i coudn't help but to help myself to a generous dollop of it! heh. wanqi took so much that she had to spread it all the way to her elbows. and than hannah and her big mouth, just had to mention about pretty boy-who happens to be online now-and hotboy, when uncle denise was just right behind us. what a blush-blush moment! ((:
and oh, to my DARLING CUZZIE, GOOD LUCK MC'ING. <33333

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my face is swollen up baaadddd. i feel like nutty professor. and i can't talk properly so all you can hear from me is some sort of distinct mumbling. and i can't really eat solid food so i've been depending on soups and bread soaked in stew or tea. and now i want mash potato! but despite all that, i went to watch HARRY POTTER. who could resist? my potter. sigh.
i'm gonna watch it over and over and over again. (:
the new director is really good. you can actually see how the film has 'grown'
but paying six dollars for a ticket at princess has its downs. mom was shifting in her seat the whole time cause she was uncomfortable. but the movie more than made up for it. lalalala.

so. the surgery went fine and dandy. had to change into the hospital gown and all and lying down on the strecther, while they push you from one place to another is definitely dizzying. and it's quite scary actually. the anaesthetist (?) was nice. she talked to me through everything and when she said that she was going to inject some sort of soya-bean colour liquid into me, i fell asleep. i was waiting for that warm feeling but i was gone by then. the next thing i knew, i was out of surgery and i had two cotten rolls stuffed into my mouth. i felt like a vampire. heh. the lady next to me was having such a bad time, she was vomitting and all. so i had to lay down there for a while more before they brought me back to the ward. i badly needed to pee then so the nurse came to take out the needle from my hand. the needle was biigggg and looonngggg. and when she took it out, blood woudn't stop oozing from the puncture wound. i would have thought that there it would be this big hole but really, it's just a tiny pinprick . it hurts though.

i was told to get some sleep but it was impossible because it was freezing and the lady next to my bed went on and on about the doctor and wanting to give them something and the doctor totally sucking up to her. bah. i felt quite miserable than cause dad wasn't there and mom had went to work and i wanted to take out the cotton roll but it was just too damn painful. and my lips and my chin! i couldn't even feel them. they were so numb and swollen. and the pain didn't really help things either. managed to sleep but i kept on drooling cause i couldnt really keep the mouth close and all. so i could see like reddish coloured saliva. than the doc came and i woke with a start cause i was just about to go to sleep and shortly after that, the nurse came and said i could go!

each step down toward the pharmacy and the taxi hurt. it's like you can feel the vibration in your cheek. it was that tender. and the best part happen at home!
i woke up and i had no food in me. i was pretty confident that i was ok because the first few times that i stood, there were no dizziness or anything but when i got up to heat up the porridge, BAM.
dad said i just started turning like really fast and i banged into the kitchen table. and the kitchen table broke! haha. like the stand and the table connected to the wall totally broke clean. it was a spectacular fall i must say. than i got banished to a spot on the floor where i had to finish up the really diluted porridge and a bowl of fish ball soup.

the madrasah girls came the next day and they were looking lovely i say! than atuk and bibik came to visit and today my two besties! yay! haha. but i'm still pretty swollen though. my aunty and cuz thought that i had grown so fat. lol.
it's like how squirrels would look like with nuts stuffed into their mouths.
but lazing at home all day isn't so bad though.

mmm-hmmm.


i managed to talk to pretty boy the other day and whent i learned that the gf was there, i felt completely violated and didn't really contribute much to then conversation. he left without saying bye though. so there. <3

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we went to arab street to the house of japan to find some jeans but instead, we took mad ass photos. well, maybe not mad ass.
more like i took mad ass photos.
sha took some too and she thought me about exposure and all. should be cool to experiment.
walking around town is really like a chore these days. there's no excitement and all. nothing new to see. no new,well, adventures. ((:

so the operation is on mon. hopefully all goes just as well.

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so. selamat hari raya to you and a welcome back to school for me.
panicked a while when i got the time table cause i realised i had no cds. went to meet brandon wong today and i managed to get into socio but i just got to know that socio sucks. go figure.
but we shall learn to love and embrace it. (:

met up with may today and it was just dandy. had to pass the cd to jia yuan so we met up with him and yuvan too. i like my secondary school mates. i especially like hanging out at starbucks. i bet we made a lot of noise cause the place was so damn small. my drink was especially sweet today. had to force it all down. i guess, for once, i took quite abit from the talk. things are going to happen for me. i can just feel it in my toes. (:

and to quote, "it's the company that matters"

<3

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so, it's the last day of ramadhan and we will be celebrating hari raya officially tomorrow.


in the middle of breaking fast, practically everyone started to tear cause it's the first year without grandma. it's bound to be hard but i'm sure we'll pull through.
on a side note, adik mentioned that he saw the lovely a few times at kasim which gave me a shock. i never did think that he will be the type to well, do that sort of stuff. i never did see him though. school's starting soon and this is a waste of a post. (: